from twitter
from my blog
from this way of thinking
i went first to my twitter
as i was typing my explanation
i saw how many more followers i had
it made me really emotional
for i dont know why
i then proceeded to look at the new followers and their profiles
i was exposed to skinny girls
after the weekends absence
i began to seriously tear up
i'm so fat
my legs look nothing like the girls in pictures
i felt strong for an instance
i felt i could be okay with myself
now i cant wait to get on that scale in the morning
and see the damage done from the weekend
how could i ever have thought that i was strong enough to think differently?
i'm pathetic
i'm fat
i'm ugly
i have enormous thighs
i'm not a good person
there is nothing special about me
i hate myself
i'm fat
